I get so enraged when I think about it. I spent years battling my body to stay thin with severe eating disorders. The instant I stopped literally starving myself, and I mean starving, I gained about 50 pounds in 6 months. I wasn't sitting around eating milkshakes all day long, but I was eating real meals, for the first time since I was 12 years old, and I couldn't work out because of an injury, and my body reacted.

Ever since then, it's been a struggle to get medical treatment because so many doctors and specialists have just assumed that my poor health was the result of being fat. Even after I had diagnoses of autoimmune diseases, fibromyalgia, a hip disfigurement, cyclic vomiting syndrome, a migraine disorder, etc, doctors keep talking over me and ignoring me.

I also have Hashimoto's, which crops up every once in a while to add a few more pounds.

I'm starting to accept that I'm just not meant to be thin.

At this rate, I just want to be happy.