I met someone I connected with like this, but I knew it wasn’t the right time. I pushed him away.. and then doubted it, resented him, went running back etc.

It was a mistake. I valued him more than me, I didn’t trust myself and my own judgment about him. He was not respectful or brave in ways I really need my partner to be. I forgot everyone else I’ve cared about and became convinced I would never find someone else. I assumed it was my fault he hadn’t treated me better, and I tried to make it up to him for all the ways I felt I’d failed.

I deserve to be with someone who treats me with decency and respect, from the beginning.

And I never want to feel that crazy ever again.