I’ve gotten used to that look when a guy realizes I’m Fat and have hairy legs and that I’m not suddenly going to transform into his image of what a Girl should look like. Even guys who really liked me and talked vaguely about the future suddenly duck out.
Guys at least in the community I was raised in also seem really scared of sex. With my big tits and filthy mouth, it’s like I turn them on too much. Once they like me, suddenly the confidence and sexiness that attracted them becomes scary or uncontrollable. They get denigrating or treat me like the fat lady porn they watch, like they want to jack off to me behind closed doors but not actually involve me as a human.